Certain Things Last: Sherwood Anderson
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For a year now I have been thinking of writing a certain book. “Well,
tomorrow I’ll get at it,” I’ve been saying to myself. Every night when
I get into bed I think about the book. The people that are to be put
between its covers dance before my eyes. I live in the city of Chicago
and at night motor trucks go rumbling along the roadway outside my
house. Not so very far away there is an elevated railroad and after
twelve o’clock at night trains pass at pretty long intervals. Before it
began I went to sleep during one of the quieter intervals but now that
the idea of writing this book has got into me I lie awake and think.
For one thing it is hard to get the whole idea of the book fixed in the
setting of the city I live in now. I wonder if you, who do not try to
write books, perhaps will understand what I mean. Maybe you will, maybe
you won’t. It is a little hard to explain. You see, it’s something like
this.

You as a reader will, some evening or some afternoon, be reading in
my book and then you will grow tired of reading and put it down. You
will go out of your house and into the street. The sun is shining and
you meet people you know. There are certain facts of your life just the
same as of mine. If you are a man, you go from your house to an office
and sit at a desk where you pick up a telephone and begin to talk about
some matter of business with a client or a customer of your house. If
you are an honest housewife, the ice man has come or there drifts into
your mind the thought that yesterday you forgot to remember some detail
concerned with running your house. Little outside thoughts come and go
in your mind, and it is so with me too. For example when I have written
the above sentence, I wonder why I have written the words “honest
housewife.” A housewife I suppose can be as dishonest as I can. What I
am trying to make clear is that, as a writer, I am up against the same
things that confront you, as a reader.
What I want to do is to express in my book a sense of the strangeness
that has gradually, since I was a boy, been creeping more and more into
my feeling about everyday life. It would all be very simple if I could
write of life in an interior city of China or in an African forest. A
man I know has recently told me of another man who, wanting to write a
book about Parisian life and having no money to go to Paris to study the
life there, went instead to the city of New Orleans. He had heard that
many people lived
in New Orleans whose ancestors were French. “They will have retained
enough of the flavor of Parisian life for me to get the feeling,” he
said to himself. The man told me that the book turned out to be very
successful and that the city of Paris read with delight a translation of
his work as a study of French life, and I am only sorry I can’t find as
simple a way out of my own job. The whole point with me is that my wish
to write this book springs from a somewhat different notion. “If I can
write everything out plainly, perhaps I will myself understand better
what has happened,” I say to myself and smile. During these days I spend
a good deal of time smiling at nothing. It bothers people. “What are
you smiling about now?” they ask, and I am up against as hard a job
trying to answer as I am trying to get underway with my book.
Sometimes in the morning I sit down at my desk and begin writing, taking as my subject a scene from my own boyhood.
Very well, I am coming home from school. The town in which I was born
and raised was a dreary, lonely little place in the far western section
of the state of Nebraska, and I imagine myself walking along one of its
streets. Sitting upon a curbing before a store is a sheep herder who has
left his flock many miles away in the foothills at the base of the
western mountains and has come into our town, for what purpose he
himself does not seem to know. He is a bearded man without a hat and
sits with his mouth slightly open, staring up and down the street. There
is a half-wild uncertain look in his eyes
and
his eyes have awakened a creepy feeling in me. I hurry away with a kind
of dread of some unknown thing eating at my vital organs. Old men are
great talkers. It may be that only kids know the real terror of
loneliness.
I have tried, you see, to start my book at that particular point in my
own life. “If I can catch exactly the feeling of that afternoon of my
boyhood, I can give the reader the key to my character,” I tell myself.
The plan won’t work. When I have written five, ten, fifteen hundred
words, I stop writing and look out at my window. A man is driving a team
of horses hitched to a wagon-load of coal along my street and is
swearing at another man who drives a Ford. They have both stopped and
are cursing each other.
The coal wagon driver’s face is black with coal dust but anger has reddened his cheeks and the red and black have produced
a dusky brown like the skin of a Negro. I have got up from my typewriter
and walk up and down in my room smoking cigarettes. My fingers pick up
little things on my desk and then put them down.
I am nervous like the race horses I used to be with at one period of my
boyhood. Before a race and when they had been brought out on
the tracks before all the people and before the race started, their
legs quivered. Sometimes there was a horse got into such a state that
when the race started he would do nothing. “Look at him. He can’t
untrack himself,” we said.
Right now I am in that state about my book. I run to the typewriter,
write for a time, and then walk nervously about. I smoke a whole package
of cigarettes during the morning.
And then suddenly I have again torn up all I have written. “It won’t
do,” I have told myself. In this book I am not intending to try to give
you the story of my life. “What of life, any man’s life?—forked radishes
running about, writing declarations of independence, telling themselves
little lies, having dreams, getting puffed up now and then with what is
called greatness. Life begins, runs its course and ends,” a man I once
knew told me one evening, and it is true. Even as I write these words a
hearse is going through my street. Two young girls, who are going off
with two young men to walk I suppose in the fields where the city ends,
stop laughing for a moment and look up at the hearse. It will be a
moment before they forget the passing hearse and begin laughing again.
“A life is like that, it passes like that,” I say to myself as I tear up
my sheets and begin again walking and smoking the cigarettes. If you
think I am sad, having these thoughts about the brevity and
insignificance of a life, you are mistaken. In the state I am in such
things do not matter. “Certain things last,” I say to myself. “One might
make things a little clear. One might even imagine a man, say a Negro,
going along a
city
street and humming a song. It catches the ear of another man who
repeats it on the next day. A thin strand of song, like a tiny stream
far up in some hill, begins to flow down into the wide plains. It waters
the fields. It freshens the air above a hot stuffy city.”
Now I have got myself worked up into a state. I am always doing that these days. I write again and again tear up my words.
I go out of my room and walk about.
I have been with a woman I have found and who loves me. It has happened
that I am a man who has not been loved by women and have all my life
been awkward and a little mixed up when in their presence. Perhaps I
have had too much respect for them, have wanted them too much. That may
be. Anyway I am not so rattled in her presence.
She, I think, has a certain control over herself and that is helpful to
me. When I am with her I keep smiling to myself and thinking, “It would
be rather a joke all around if she found me out.”
When she is looking in another direction I study her a little. That she
should seem to like me so much surprises me and I am sore at my own
surprise. I grow humble and do not like my humbleness either. “What is
she up to? She is very lovely. Why is she wasting her time with me?”
I shall remember always certain hours when I have been with her. Late on
a certain Sunday afternoon I remember I sat in a chair in a
room in her apartment. I sat with my hand against my cheek, leaning a
little forward. I had dressed myself carefully because I was going to
see her, had put on my best suit of clothes. My hair was carefully
combed and my glasses carefully balanced on my rather large nose. And
there I was, in her apartment in a certain city, in a chair in a rather
dark corner, with my hand against my cheek, looking as solemn as an old
owl. We had been walking about and had come into the house and she had
gone away leaving me sitting there, as I have said. The apartment was in
a part of the city where many foreign people live and from my chair I
could, by turning my head a little, look down into a street filled with
Italians.
It was growing dark outside and I could just see the people in the
street. If I cannot remember facts about my own and other people’s
lives, I can always remember every feeling that has gone through me, or
that I have thought went through anyone about me. The men going along
the street below the window all had dark swarthy faces and nearly all of
them wore, somewhere about them, a spot of color. The younger men, who
walked with a certain swagger, all had on flaming red ties. The street
was dark but far down the street there was a spot where a streak of
sunlight still managed to find its way in between two tall buildings and
fell sharp against the face of a smaller red-brick building. It pleased
my fancy to imagine the street had also put on a red necktie, perhaps
because there would be lovemaking along the street before Monday
morning.
Anyway
I sat there looking and thinking such thoughts as came to me. The women
who went along the street nearly all had dark colored shawls drawn up
about their faces. The road-way was filled with children whose voices
made a sharp tinkling sound.
My fancy went out of my body in a way of speaking, I suppose, and I
began thinking of myself as being at that moment in a city in Italy.
Americans like myself who have not traveled are always doing that. I
suppose the people of another nation would not understand how doing it
is almost necessity in our lives, but any American will understand. The
American, particularly a middle-American, sits as I was doing at that
moment, dreaming you understand, and suddenly he is in Italy or in a
Spanish town where a dark-looking man is riding a bony horse along a
street, or he is being driven over the Russian steppes in a sled by a
man whose face is all covered with whiskers. It is an idea of the
Russians got from looking at cartoons in newspapers but it answers the
purpose. In the distance a pack of
wolves are following the sled.A fellow I once knew told me that
Americans are always up to such tricks because all of our old stories
and dreams have come to us from over the sea and because we have no old
stories and dreams of our own. Of that I can’t say. I am not putting
myself forward as a thinker on the subject of the causes of the
characteristics of the American people or any other monstrous or
important matter of that kind. But anyway, there I was, sitting, as I
have told you, in the Italian section of an American city and dreaming
of myself being in Italy.
To be sure I wasn’t alone. Such a fellow as myself never is alone in his
dreams. And as I sat having my dream, the woman with whom I had been
spending the afternoon, and with whom I am no doubt what is called “in
love,” passed between me and the window through which I had been
looking. She had on a dress of some soft clinging stuff and her slender
figure made a very lovely line across the light. Well, she was like a
young tree you might see on a hill, in a windstorm perhaps.
What I did, as you may have supposed, was to take her with me into Italy.
The woman became at once, and in my dream, a very beautiful princess in a
strange land I have never visited. It may be that when I was a boy in
my western town some traveler came
there
to lecture on life in Italian cities before a club that met at the
Presbyterian church and to which my mother belonged, or perhaps later I
read some novel the name of which I can’t remember. And so my princess
had come down to me along a path out of a green wooded hill where her
castle was located. She had walked under blossoming trees in the
uncertain evening light and some blossoms had fallen on her black hair.
The perfume of Italian nights was in her hair. That notion came into my
head. That’s what I mean.
What really happened was that she saw me sitting there lost in my dream
and, coming to me, rumpled my hair and upset the glasses perched on my
big nose and, having done that, went laughing out of the room.
I speak of all this because later, on that same evening, I lost all
notion of the book I am now writing and sat until three in the morning
writing on another book, making the woman the central figure. “It will
be a story of old times, filled with moons and stars and the fragrance
of half-decayed trees in an old
land,” I told myself, but when I had written many pages I tore them up too.
“Something has happened to me or I should not be filled with the idea of
writing this book at all,” I told myself going to my window to look out
at the night. “At a certain hour of a certain day and in a certain
place, something happened that has changed the whole current of my life.
“The thing to be done,” I then told myself, “is to begin writing my
book by telling as clearly as I can the adventures of that certain
moment.”
A
task one hopes to complete and yet defers because it cannot be begun is
perfectly expressed by the the word the Romans thought they heard in
the cry of the raven – “cras, cras,” meaning “tomorrow,
tomorrow” – and which symbolises hope as well as procrastination. This
seems to aptly echo the predicament adumbrated by Sherwood Anderson in
this essay “Certain Things Last”, which he wrote sometime in the
twenties, and which was found among his papers and published only in
1992.
We do not know if it was ever intended for publication; indeed, we cannot even know for certain if he completed the piece. All writers feel this way at times about the things they write, because they know what a devilishly difficult job the task of writing can present. Noah’s raven, and the first to be released from the ark, (unlike his second envoy the docile dove) never returned. We may wonder what happened to it, and how it was reunited with its mate who presumably was released after the flood subsided. But reunited they must have been, on some hopeful ‘tomorrow,’ for the world veritably teems with ravens and their ilk.
Anderson’s ‘tomorrow,’ after a difficult boyhood and adolescence in
the small and typically claustrophobic town of Clyde, Ohio, led to the
occupation of writer. By his own account, his best known work, a
compilation of 22 stories published under the title of Winesburg, Ohio, came to him all in a rush.
“…it was a late fall night and raining…I was there naked in the bed and I sprang up. I went to my typewriter and began to write. It was there, under those circumstances, myself sitting near an open window, the rain occasionally blowing in and wetting my bare back, that I did my first writing…I wrote it, as I wrote them all, complete in the one sitting…The rest of the stories in the book came out of me on succeeding evenings, and sometimes during the day while I worked in the advertising office…”
But “Some Things Last” seems to tell a different story. As the cry of the raven suggests, the exercise of writing requires the disordering of time. Anderson’s writing career commenced after a mental breakdown, shortly after which he abandoned his family. Four days after he ‘disappeared’, he was found thirty miles away in Cleveland, having walked that distance. He never went back home.
In order to make its way into writing, the past must be recollected, relived and recreated. It must sometimes be artificially rearranged and reordered before it can be placed in front of a reader, and if that weren’t enough cause for dismay, past and present, these two parallel and simultaneously unfolding tracks must be made to seem to come seamlessly together.
The
task set for himself here by Anderson, that of trying to grasp at the
flickering pattern cast by scattered thoughts and then to collect them
for an arrangement to set on the page, is the perennial bane and delight
of the writer. I don’t know if this is a task which may be better
accomplished by a woman writer; certainly women like Virginia Woolf
excelled at it, but Anderson shows us how a virtue may be made of
stumbling. He conveys the slipperiness of the the whole process so
vividly that even to someone who doesn’t think much about writing, the
feeling of helplessness and unease comes wholly through. The hopeless
feeling of being unable to ferry a thought from the having to the
expressing of it is particularly acute when the ability to do it remains
lost somewhere that is not amenable to recall. It is like floating in
dark water and trying to remember how to move one’s arms and legs. I
think this is in part because the language of recall is not strictly
speaking ‘language’ but a kind of code conveyed in images.
“Some Things Last” is writing thrice removed: it is writing that shows how a writer writes about writing. There is self-revelation in it, but only so much. Anderson is willing to reveal that he smokes somewhat to excess, but not that he drinks, though drink he did. His death in 1941 at the age of 64 – while he and his fourth wife Eleanor Copenhaver were on a cruise to South America – was caused by peritonitis following the accidental ingestion of a toothpick from either a martini or an hors d’ oeuvre, though I rather think it was the former than the latter.
Whether lubricated by alcohol or driven by digressiveness or
restlessness, Anderson’s mind, resorts to narratives of flowing images,
even as he anxiously attempts to impose order and structure on his
wayward thoughts in order to secure an outcome. He in turn surrenders
and attempts to control in order to impose a shape or a structure or
even an account of something written. Indeed one cannot be certain if
this piece of writing was guided to its intended conclusion, or if it
simply petered out at an impasse or a cul de sac with nowhere
else to go and no way to turn back. “What is the point?” we wonder. Is
it only to show that the writing of a book is a difficult enterprise,
and that someone who sets him- or herself to the task must contend with
endless distractions, diversions and detours on the way to getting the
job done? Or is it to reveal the unruly nature of the process, how the
very thoughts that must make up the content turn out to be
perturbations, which as they move away from their point of origin, take
one further and further away from the goal? Writers must learn to
negotiate these obstacles, for they can never quite be overcome.
It would seem that a solution to the writer’s dilemma must be found
in a skillful compromise. The kind of aimless undirected dreamy musings,
the fragile repositories of vivid and detailed imagery, must be
permitted to go on unimpeded
even
as some agent of the thinking self stands by to take notes. And it
seems that Anderson possessed a good note-taker, since it was he who
wrote “She had on a dress of some clinging stuff and her slender
figure made a very lovely line across the light” and “she was like a
young tree you might see on a hill in a windstorm perhaps…..”
One of the chief difficulties of writing is that what is written
about, the sights, smells and sensations of it, come almost always from a
different time and place from when the writing takes place. They are
imported from another world, which has to be recalled and recreated in
the mind at the moment of writing. The writer has to recall them from
when, like a traveller, he or she had to keep track of that place in
the country, that path, and the details observed while on it, and the
objects which were chosen to bring back from the journey. Then, as now,
there were problems to be solved – what could properly be packed –
what carried – and how these things would look when placed in the
writer’s parlour or on the mantel. Would they bring back the sights and
smells they seemed to be imbued with at the first encounter? Or would
they become lifeless and incongruous when removed from their proper
context, when forced to inhabit an unnatural place? Should the
suggestion of the princess who lives in the castle at the end of the
path along the green, wooded hill, be permitted to intrude? Yes, perhaps
because it seems to echo the diffident insecurity this writer felt
about his woman friend. And the blossoming trees, the evening light and
the flowers in her dark hair must come along too. Then of course, black
hair and Italian nights, which are shadowy counterparts of each other,
must gain admittance as well. If in the next moments one ‘goes to his
window to look out at the night,’ one might see, instead of the
spark-sprinkled darkness of a sleeping city, “the moon and stars, and
half-decayed trees in an old land.’
The thoughts and images we carry away from our inward travels seem to undergo a change when made to enter the outside world. They are like poems which resist being translated into a different language. The greatest care must be taken so that they do not become mere representations of what they truly are in their own voice and tongue. The difference between the inner and outer life is not always bridgeable, something most writers simultaneously accept and struggle mightily against.
The task of moving words from mind to paper, of trapping moments
vivid with life and fixing them on the page, can seem daunting at times.
The troublesomeness and difficulty of committing to memory the elusive
phenomena of fleeting suggestions of thoughts and brief flares of barely
glimpsed images as they pass through the mind
seem
at times quite hopeless, and recollecting them seems like gathering
leaves blown by the wind. Time too is not durable. It warps and bends in
the attempt to draw it through the lens of memory. Are these what
Anderson refers to as ‘the adventures of that certain moment?’ Are they
fit to be the chosen subject of a piece of writing? Or should they be
consigned to some vague designation of questionable value, to occupy the
limbo between something which used to be either sustaining or memorable
but is no longer, but is now discarded and stale as an old torn
photograph or a half-eaten meal left neglected to grow cold on the
kitchen table? Are these some things that last? Are they?
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Parthenope: Rebecca West
24 January, 2013 by theinkbrain
My Uncle Arthur had red hair that lay close to his head in flat,
circular curls, and a pointed red beard, and his blue-green eyes were at
once
penetrating and bemused. He was the object of mingled derision and
respect in our family. He was a civil servant who had early attracted
attention by his brilliance; but the chief of his department, like so
many English civil servants, was an author in his spare time, and when
he published a history of European literature, my uncle reviewed it in
the leading weekly of the day, pointing out that large as was the number
of works in the less familiar languages that his chief supposed to be
written in prose, though in fact they were written in verse, it was not
so large as the number of such works that he supposed to be written in
verse, though in fact they were written in prose. He wrote without
malice, simply thinking his chief would be glad to know. My uncle never
connected this review with his subsequent failure to gain a promotion
that had seemed certain, or to have the day as snug as civil servants
usually had it in the nineteenth century. But in the course of time his
chief died, and my uncle rose to be an important official. However, he
did a Cabinet Minister much the same service he had rendered his chief,
and he never received the title that normally went with his post.
So he seesawed through life, and I liked his company very much when he
was an old man and I was a young girl, for it was full of surprises.
When
I asked him a question, I never knew if his answer would show that he
knew far less than I did or far more; and though he was really quite
old, for he was my father’s elder by many years, he often made
discoveries such as a schoolchild might make, and shared them with an
enthusiasm as little adult. One day he gave me no peace till I had come
with him to see the brightest field of buttercups he had ever found near
London; it lay, solid gold, beside the great Jacobean mansion Ham
House, by the river Thames. After we had admired it he took me to nearby
Petersham Church, to see another treasure, the tomb of Captain
Vancouver, who gave his name to the island; my uncle liked this tomb
because he had spent some years of his boyhood in Canada and had been to
Vancouver Island when it was hardly inhabited. Then we had tea in an
inn garden and it happened that the girl who waited on us was called
away by the landlord as she set the china on the table. His voice came
from the kitchen: “Parthenope! Parthenope!” My uncle started, for no
very good reason that I could see. There had been a time when many ships
in the British Navy were called after characters in Greek history and
mythology, male and female, and therefore many sailors’ daughters had
been given the names of nymphs and goddesses and Homeric princesses and
heroines of Greek tragedy. The only strange thing was that it was a long
time since British ships had been christened so poetically, and most of
the women who had acquired these classical names by this secondary
interest were by now old or middle-aged, while our little waitress was
very young. She had, as she told us when she came back, been called
after a grandmother. But my uncle was plainly shaken by hearing those
four syllables suddenly borne on the afternoon air. His thin hand
plucked at the edge of the tablecloth, he cast down his eyes, his head
began to nod and shake. He asked me if he had ever told me the story of
the Admiral and his seven daughters, in a tone that suggested that he
knew he had not and was still trying to make up his mind whether he
wanted to tell it now. Indeed, he told me very little that day though I
was to hear the whole of it before he died.
The story began at the house of my grandmother’s sister, Alice Darrell,
and it could hardly have happened anywhere else. When her husband, an
officer in the Indian Army, died of fever, her father-in-law had given
her a house that he had recently and reluctantly inherited and could not
sell because it was part of an entailed estate. He apologized for the
gift, pleading justly that he could not afford to buy her another, and
she accepted it bravely. But the house lay in a district that would
strain anybody’s bravery. To reach it, one travelled about eight miles
out of London along the main Hammersmith Road, the dullest of highways,
and then turned left and found something worse. For some forgotten
reason, there had sprung up at this point a Hogarthian slum, as bad as
anything in the East End, which turned into a brawling hell every
Saturday night. Beyond this web of filthy hovels lay flatlands covered
by orchards and farmlands and market gardens, among which there had been
set down three or four large houses. There was nothing to recommend the
site. The Thames was
not
far distant, and it was comprehensible enough that along its bank there
had been built a line of fine houses, But at Alice Darrell’s there was
no view of the river, though it lay near enough to shroud the region in
mist during the winter months. It was true that the gardens had an
alluvial fertility, but even they did not give the pleasure they should
have done, for the slum dwellers carried out periodical raids on the
strawberry beds and raspberry canes and orchards. These stranded houses
had been built in Regency times and were beautiful, though
disconcerting, because there was no reason why they should be there, and
they were so oddly placed in relation to each other. They all opened
off the same narrow road, and Aunt Alice’s house, Currivel Lodge, which
was the smallest of them, lay at the end of a drive, and there faced
sideways, so that its upper windows looked straight down on the garden
of the much bigger house beside it, as that had been built nearer the
road. This meant that my grandaunt could not sit on the pretty balcony
outside her bedroom window without seeming to spy on her neighbours, so
she never used it. But when my Uncle Arthur went to stay with her as a
little boy, which was about a hundred years ago, nothing delighted him
more than to shut himself in his bedroom and kneel on his window and do
what his Aunt Alice could not bear to be suspected of doing.
Currivel Lodge should have been a dreary place for the child. There was
nowhere to walk and nowhere to ride. There was no village where one
could watch the blacksmith at his forge and the carpenter at his bench.
In those days, nobody rowed on the Thames anywhere but at Oxford, unless
they were watermen earning their living. There was little visiting, for
it took a good hour to an hour and a half to drive to London, and my
needy grandaunt’s horses were old crocks. Her children were all older
than little Arthur. But he enjoyed his visit simply because of the hours
he spent on that window seat. I know the setting of the scene on which
he looked, since I often stayed in that house many years later; for of
course my grandaunt’s family never left it. When the entail came to
an end and the property could have been sold, there were the Zulu Wars,
and South African War, the First World War, and all meant that the
occupants were too busy or too troubled to move; and they were still
living there when the house was swept away in a town-planning scheme
during the twenties. What Arthur in his day and I in mine looked down on
was a croquet lawn framed by trees, very tall trees-so tall and strong,
my uncle said with approval, that though one could not see the river,
one knew that there must be one not far away. Born and reared in one of
the wettest parts of Ireland, he regarded dry weather and a dry soil as
the rest of us regard dry bread.
To the left of his lawn, seen through foliage, was a stone terrace
overgrown with crimson and white roses. Behind the terrace rose the
mellow red rectangle of a handsome Regency house with a green copper
cupola rising from its roof. What my uncle saw there that was not there
for me to see was a spectacle that gave him the same soft of enjoyment I
was to get from the ballet Les Sylphides. When the weather
was fine, it often happened that there would come down the broad stone
steps of the terrace a number of princesses out of a fairy tale, each
dressed in a different pale but bright colour. Sometimes there were as
few as four of these princesses; occasionally there were as many as
seven. Among the colours that my uncle thought he remembered them
wearing were hyacinth blue, the green of the leaves of lilies of the
valley, a silvery lilac that was almost grey, a transparent red
that
was like one’s hand when one holds it up to a strong light, primrose
yellow, a watery jade green, and a gentle orange. The dresses were made
of muslin, and billowed in loops and swinging circles as their wearers’
little feet carried them about in what was neither a dance nor the
everyday motion of ordinary people. It was as if these lovely, creatures
were all parts of a brave and sensitive and melancholy being, and were
at once confiding in each other about their griefs, which were their
common grief, and giving each other reassurance.
Some carried croquet mallets and went on to the lawn and started to
play, while the others sat down on benches to watch them. But sooner or
later the players would pause and forget to make the next stroke, move
toward each other and stand in a group, resting their mallets on the
ground, and presently forget them and let them fall, as the spectators
rose from their seats to join them in their exchange of confidences.
Though they appeared in the garden as often as three times a week, they
always seemed to have as much to say to one another as if they met but
once a year; and they were always grave as they talked. There was a
wildness about them, it was impossible to tell what they would do next,
one might suddenly break away from the others and waltz round the lawn
in the almost visible arms of an invisible partner; but when they
talked, they showed restraint, they did not weep, though what they said
was so plainly sad, and they rarely laughed. What was true of one of
them was true of all, for there seemed very little difference between
them. All were golden-headed. The only one who could be told apart was
the wearer of the lilac-grey dress. She was taller than the rest, and
often stood aloof while they clustered together and swayed and spoke.
Sometimes a woman in a black gown came down from the terrace and talked
to this separate one.
The girls in the coloured dresses were the seven daughters of the
Admiral who owned the house. My uncle saw him once, when he called on
Alice
Darrell to discuss with her arrangements for repairing the wall between
their properties: a tall and handsome man with iron-grey hat, a
probing, defensive gaze, and a mouth so sternly compressed that it was a
straight line across his face. The call would never have been made had
there not been business to discuss. The Admiral would have no social
relations with his neighbours; nobody had ever been invited to his
house. Nor, had such an invitation been sent, would Aunt Alice have
accepted it, for she thought he treated his daughters abominably. She
could not help smiling when she told her nephew their names, for they
came straight off the Navy List: Andromeda, Cassandra, Clytie, Hera,
Parthenope, Arethusa, and Persephone. But that was the only time she
smiled when she spoke of them, for she thought they had been treated
with actual cruelty, though not in the way that might have been
supposed. They were not immured in this lonely house by a father who
wanted to keep them to himself; their case was the very opposite. The
Admiral’s daughters were, in effect, motherless. By Aunt Alice my Uncle
Arthur was told that the Admiral’s wife was an invalid and had to live
in a mild climate in the West of England, but from the servants he
learned that she was mad. Without a wife to soften him, the Admiral
dealt with his daughters summarily by sending each of them, as she
passed her seventeenth birthday, to be guided through the London season
by his only sister, a wealthy woman with a house in Berkeley Square, and
by giving each to the first man of reasonably respectable character who
made her an offer of marriage. He would permit no delay, though his
daughters, who had inheritances from a wealthy
grandfather,
as well as their beauty, would obviously have many suitors. These
precipitate marriages were always against the brides’ inclinations, for
they had, strangely enough, no desire but to go on living in their
lonely home.
“They are,” Aunt Alice told her nephew, hesitating and looking troubled,
“oddly young for their ages. I know they are not old, and that they
have lived a great deal alone, since their mother cannot be with them.
But they are really very young for what they are.” They had yielded, it
was said, only to the most brutal pressure exercised by their father. It
astonished my uncle that all this was spoken of as something that had
happened in the past. They did not look like grown-up ladies as they
wandered in the garden, yet all but two were wives, and those two were
betrothed, and some of them were already mothers. Parthenope, the one
with most character, the one who had charge of the house in her father’s
absence, had married a North Country landowner who was reputed to be a
millionaire. It was a pity that he was twice her age and had, by a dead
wife, a son almost as old as she was, but a fortune is a great comfort;
and none of her sisters was without some measure of that same kind of
consolation. Nevertheless, their discontent could be measured by the
frequency with which they returned to the house of their childhood.
The first time my uncle visited Currivel Lodge, the Admiral’s seven
daughters were only a spectacle for his distant enjoyment. But one day
during his second visit, a year later, his aunt asked him to deliver a
note for Miss Parthenope at the house next door. Another section of the
wall
between the properties was in need of buttresses, and the builder had
to have his orders. My uncle went up to his bedroom and smoothed his
hair and washed his face, a thing he had never done before between
morning and night of his own accord, and when he got to the Admiral’s
house, he told the butler, falsely but without a tremor, that he had
been told to give the note into Miss Parthenope’s own hands. It did not
matter to him that the butler looked annoyed at hearing this: too much
was at stake. He followed the butler’s offended back through several
rooms full of fine furniture, which were very much like the rooms to
which he was accustomed, but had a sleepy air, as if the windows were
closed, though they were not. In one there were some dolls thrown down
on the floor, though he had never heard that there were any children
living in the house. In the last room, which opened on the stone terrace
and its white and crimson roses, a woman in a black dress with a
suggestion of a uniform about it was sitting at an embroidery frame. She
stared at him as if
he
presented a greater problem than schoolboys usually do, and he
recognized her as the dark figure he had seen talking with the tallest
of the daughters in the garden.
She took the letter from him, and he saw that the opportunity he had
seized was slipping out of his grasp, so he pretended to be younger and
simpler than he was, and put on the Irish brogue, which he never used at
home except when he was talking to the servants or the people on the
farms, but which he had found charmed the English. “May I not go out
into the garden and see the young ladies?” he asked. “I have watched
them from my window, and they look so pretty.”
It worked. The woman smiled and said. “You’re from Ireland, aren’t you?”
and before he could answer she exclaimed, as if defying prohibitions of
which she had long been weary, “What is the harm? Yes, go out and give
the note to Miss Parthenope yourself. You will know her – she is wearing
grey and is the tallest.” When he got out on the terrace, he saw that
all seven of the Admiral’s daughters were on the lawn, and his heart was
like a turning windmill as he went down the stone steps. Then one of
the croquet players caught sight of him-the one who was wearing a red
dress, just nearer flame colour than flesh. She dropped her mallet and
cried, “Oh, look, a little boy! A little red-haired boy!” and danced
toward him, sometimes pausing and twirling right round, so that her
skirts billowed out round her. Other voices took up the cry, and, cooing
like pigeons, the croquet players closed in on him in a circle of
unbelievable beauty. It was their complexions that he remembered in
later life as the marvel that made them, among all the women he was ever
to see, the nonpareils. Light lay on their skin as it lies on the
petals of flowers, but it promised that it would never fade, that it
would last forever, like the pearl. Yet even while he remarked their
loveliness and was awed by it, he was disconcerted. They came so close,
and it seemed as if they might do more than look at him and speak to
him. It was as if a flock of birds had come down on him, and were
fluttering and pecking about him; and they asked so many questions, in
voices that chirped indefatigably and were sharper than the human note.
“Who are you?” “You are Mrs Darrell’s nephew?” “Her
brother’s child or her sister’s?” “How old are you?” “What is your
name?” “Why is your middle name Greatorex?” “Oh, what lovely hair he has
– true Titian! And those round curls like coins!” “Have you sisters?”
“Have they hair like yours?” Their little hands darted out and touched
his hands, his cheeks, his shoulders, briefly but not pleasantly. His
flesh rose in goose pimples, as it did when a moth’s wing brushed his
face as he lay in bed in the dark. And while their feathery,
restlessness poked and cheeped at him, they looked at him with eyes
almost as fixed as if they were blind and could not see him at all.
Their eyes were immense and very bright and shaded by lashes longer than
he had ever seen; but they were so light a grey that they were as
colourless as clear water running over a bed of pebbles. He was glad
when the woman in the black dress called from the terrace. “Leave the
boy alone!” He did not like anything about the Admiral’s daughters, now
he saw them at close range. Even their dresses, which had looked
beautiful from a distance, repelled him. If a lady had been sitting to a
portrait painter in the character of a wood nymph, she might have worn
such draperies, but it was foolish to wear them in a garden, when there
was nobody to see them. “Leave the boy alone!” the woman in black called
again. “He has come with a letter for Parthenope.”
She
had not been one of the circle. Now that the others fell back, my uncle
saw her standing a little way off, biting her lip and knitting her
brows, as if the scene disturbed her. There were other differences,
beyond her height, that distinguished her from her sisters. While they
were all that was most feminine, with tiny waists and hands, and feet,
she might have been a handsome and athletic boy dressed in woman’s
clothes for a school play. Only, of course, one knew quite well that she
was not a boy. She stood erect, her arms hanging by her sides,
smoothing back the muslin billows of her skirt, as if they were
foolishness she would be glad to put behind her; and indeed, she would
have looked better in Greek dress. Like her sisters, she had golden
hair, but hers was a whiter gold. As my uncle and she went toward each
other, she smiled, and he was glad to see that her eyes were a darker
grey than her sisters’, and were quick and glancing. He told her who he
was, speaking honestly, not putting on a brogue to win her, and she
smiled and held out her hand. It took her a little time to read the
letter, and she frowned over it and held her forefinger to her lips, and
bade him tell his aunt that she would send over an answer later in the
day, after she had consulted her gardeners, and then she asked him if he
would care to come into the house and drink some raspberry vinegar. As
she led him across the lawn to the terrace, walking with long strides,
he saw that her sisters were clustered in a group, staring up at a
gutter high on the house, where a rook had perched, as if the bird were a
great marvel. “Should I say good-bye to the ladies?” he asked
nervously, and Parthenope answered, “No, they have forgotten you
already” However, one had not. The sister who wore the light-red dress
ran after him, crying, “Come back soon, little boy, Nobody ever comes
into this garden except to steal our strawberries.”
Parthenope took him through the silent house, pausing in the room where
the dolls lay on the floor to lift them up and shut them in a drawer,
and they came to a dining room, lined with pictures of great ships at
war with stormy seas. There was no raspberry vinegar on the top of the
sideboard–only decanters wearing labels marked with the names of adult
drinks he was allowed only at Christmas and on his birthday, and then
but one glass, and he always chose claret. So they opened the cupboard
below, and sat down together on the carpet and peered into the darkness
while he told her that he did not really want any but if it had gone
astray he would be pleased to help her find it. But when the decanter
turned up at the very back of the shelf (and they agreed that that was
what always happened where one lost anything, and that there was no
doubt that objects can move), they both had a glass, talking meanwhile
of what they liked to eat and drink. Like him, she hated boiled mutton,
and she, too, liked goose better than turkey. When he had finished and
the talk had slowed down, he rose and put his glass on the sideboard,
and offered her a hand to help her up from the floor, but she did not
need it; and he gave a last look round the room, so that he would not
forget it. He asked her, “Why is your chandelier tied up in a canvas
bag? At home that only happens when the family is away.” She answered,
“Our family is away,” speaking so grimly that he said, “I did not mean
to ask a rude question.” She told him. “you have not asked a rude
question. What I meant was that all but two of us have our own homes,
and those two will be leaving here soon.” It would not have
been
right to say that she spoke sadly. But her tone was empty of all it had
held when they had talked about how much better chicken tastes when you
eat it with your fingers when you are out shooting. He remembered all
the sad things he had heard his aunt say about her family, the sadder
things he had heard from the servants. He said, “Why don’t you come back
with me and have tea with my aunt?” She said, smiling, “She has not
asked me.” And he said, “Never think of that. We are not proper English,
you know; we are from Ireland, and friends come in any time…” But she
thanked him, sighing, so that he knew she would really have liked to
come, and said that she must go back to her sisters. As the butler held
the front door open for my uncle, she gave him a friendly slap across
the shoulders, as an older boy might have done.
After that, my uncle never watched the Admiral’s daughters again. If a
glance told him that they were in the garden, he turned his back on the
window. He had not liked those staring eyes that were colourless as
water, and it troubled him that though some of them had children, none
had said, “I have a boy, too, but he is much younger than you,” for
mothers always said that. He remembered Parthenope so well that he could
summon her to his mind when he wished, and he could not bear to see her
with these women who made him feel uneasy, because he was sure that he
and she felt alike, and therefore she must be in a perpetual state of
unease. so when, the very day before he was to go back to Ireland, he
looked out of his bedroom window and saw her alone on the lawn, he threw
up the sash and called to her; but she did not hear him. She was
absorbed in playing a game by
herself, a game that he knew well. She was throwing a ball high into
the air, then letting her arms drop by her sides, and waiting to the
last, the very last moment, before stretching out a hand to catch it. It
was a strange thing for a grown-up lady to be doing, but it did not
distress him like the play-ground gambolling and chattering of her
sisters. They had been like children as grownups like to think of them,
silly and meaningless and mischievous. But she was being a child as
children really are, sobered by all they have to put up with and glad to
forget it in play. There was currently some danger that his own father
was going to get a post in some foreign place and that the whole family
would have to leave County Kerry for years and years; and when he and
his brothers and sisters thought of this, they would go and, each one
apart, would play this very same game that Parthenope was playing.
He did not want to raise his voice in a shout, in case he was overheard
by his aunt or his mother. They would not understand that although
Parthenope and he had met only once, they knew each other quite well. He
got up from the window seat and went out of his room and down through
the house and out into the garden. There was a ladder in the coach
house, and he dragged it to the right part of the wall and propped it up
and stopped it with stones, and climbed to the top and called “Miss
Parthenope” When she saw him, she smiled and waved at him as if she
really were glad to see him again.
“Where are your sisters” he asked cautiously.
“They have all gone away. I am going home tomorrow.”
“So am I.”
“Are you glad?”
“Papa will be there,” he said, “and my brothers and sisters, and Garrity the groom, and my pony.”
She
asked him the names of his brothers and sisters, and how old they were,
and where his home was; and he told her all these things and told her,
too, that his father was always being sent all over the world, and that
of late he and his brothers and sisters had heard talk that someday,,
and it might be soon, he would be sent to some foreign place for so long
that they would have to go with him, and they didn’t want this to
happen; for though they loved him and wanted to be near him, they loved
County Kerry, too. At that, she stopped smiling and nodded her head, as
if to say she knew how he must feel. “But perhaps it won’t happen,” he
said, “and then you must come and stay with us for the hunting.” He
thought of her in a riding habit, and at that he noticed that she was
wearing a dress such as his own mother might have worn – a dress of grey
cloth, with a tight bodice and a stiffened skirt, ornamented with
braid. He said, “How funny to see you dressed like other ladies. Don’t
you usually wear that lilac-grey muslin dress?”
She shook her head. “No. My sisters and I only wear those muslin dresses when we are together here. My, sisters like them.”
“Don’t you?”” he said, for her tone had gone blank again.
“No,” she answered, “not at all.”
He was glad to hear it, but it seemed horribly unfair that she should
have to wear clothes she did not like, just because her sisters did;
nothing of
the sort happened in his own family. “Then don’t wear them” he said
passionately. “You mustn’t wear them! Not if you don’t like them!”
“You’re making your ladder wobble,” she said, laughing at him, “and if
you fall down, I can’t climb over the wall and pick you up.” She started
across the lawn toward the house.
“Garrity says that you’re lost if you let yourself be put upon,” he
cried after her, his brogue coming back to him, but honestly, because he
spoke to Garrity as Garrity spoke to him. He would have liked to have
the power to make her do what she ought to do, and save her from all
this foolishness.
“Good-bye, good-bye,” she called across the growing distance. “Be a good boy, and come back to see us next year.”
“You will be here for sure?” he asked eagerly.
“Oh, yes,” she promised. “We will always be back here for some time in
the summer. My sisters would rather be here than anywhere in the world.”
“But do you like it yourself” he asked angrily.
It was no use. She had run up the steps to the terrace.
My uncle did not come back the next year, because his fears were
realized and his father was appointed to a post in Canada. But from his
aunt’s letters to his mother he learned that even if he had returned to
Currivel Lodge, he would not have seen Parthenope, for the Admiral sold
the house later that year, as soon as his two remaining daughters went
to
the altar, which they did with even greater reluctance than their elder
sisters. Alice Darrell’s maid happened to be at the window one winter
day and saw the two of them walking up and down the lawn, dressed in
those strange, bright muslin gowns and wearing no mantles, though the
river mist was thick, while they wept and wrung their hands. Aunt Alice
felt that even if the Admiral had felt obliged to bundle all his
daughters into matrimony, he should at least not have sold the house,
which was the one place where they could meet and have a little nursery
happiness again.
In the course of time, Uncle Arthur came back to Ireland, and went to
Trinity College, Dublin, and passed into the English Civil Service, and
was sent to London. The first time he went back to Currivel Lodge, he
stood at his bedroom window and stared out at the croquet lawn of the
house next door, and it looked very much like other croquet lawns. Under
the trees two men and two women were sitting round a tea table, all of
them presenting the kind of appearance, more common then than now, that
suggests that nothing untoward happens to the human race. It occurred to
him that perhaps his boyish imagination had made a story out of
nothing, but Aunt Alice gave him back his version intact. The Admiral
had really hectored his daughters into early and undesired marriages,
with the most brutal disregard for their feelings, and the daughters had
really been very strange girls, given to running about the garden in a
sort of fancy dress and behaving like children – all except Parthenope,
who was quite remarkable. She had made her mark in society since then.
Well, so they all had, in a way. Their photographs were always in the
papers, at one time, and no wonder, they were so very pretty. But that
seemed over now, and, indeed, they must all be out of their twenties by
now, even the youngest. Parthenope’s triumphs, however, had been more
durable. It was said that Queen Victoria greatly approved of her, and
she was often at Court. My uncle always thought of Parthenope when he
was dressing
for any of the grander parties to which he was invited, and he soon
found his way to the opera and ascertained which was her box, but she
was never at the parties, and, unless she had changed out of all
recognition, never in her box at Covent Garden, either. My uncle did not
wish to approach her, for he was a poor young man far below her
grandeur, and they belonged to different generations; at the least, she
was twelve years older than he was. But he would have liked to see her
again.
Soon, however, he received an intimation that that would not be
possible. One morning at breakfast he unfolded his newspaper and folded
it again almost immediately, having read a single paragraph, which told
him that Parthenope had met a violent death. He had failed to meet her
at parties and to see her in her opera box because she had been spending
the winter abroad, taking care of two of her sisters who had both been
the victims of prolonged illness. Originally, they had settled at Nice,
but had found it too urban, and had moved to a hotel at Grasse, where
they spent some weeks. Then a friend had found them a pleasant villa at
Hyères, and the party had started off from Grasse in two carriages.
Parthenope and her sisters and a lady’s maid had travelled in the first,
and another maid and a courier had followed in the second. The second
carriage had dropped far behind. Afterwards, the coachman remembered
that he had been oddly delayed in leaving the inn where they had stopped
for a midday meal; he had been told that a
man
was looking for him with a letter for his employers, and failing to
find him had gone to a house some way down the village street. The
coachman sought him but there was nobody there; and on his return to his
horses he discovered that a harness strap was broken, and he had to
mend it before they could resume their journey. After a sharp turn in
the road, he had found himself driving into a felled tree trunk, and
when the courier and the maid and the coachman got out, they could see
no sign of the first carriage. It was found some hours later, abandoned
on a cart track running through a wood to a river. There was no trace of
any of its occupants. Later that same day the maid crawled up to a
farmhouse door. Before she collapsed she was able to tell the story of
an attack by masked men, who had, she thought, killed the three sisters
outright because they refused to tell in which trunk their jewel cases
were packed. She had escaped during the struggle, and while she was
running away through the woods, she had heard terrible prolonged
screaming from the riverbank. As the river was in flood, there was no
hope of recovering the bodies.
After my uncle had read all the accounts of the crime that appeared in
the newspapers, and had listened to all he could hear from gossiping
friends, there hung, framed on the wall of his mind, a romantic picture
of a highway robbery, in the style of Senator Rosa, with coal-black
shadows and highlights white on hands lifted in imploration, and he felt
no emotion whatsoever. When he had opened The Times at breakfast, his
heart had stopped. But now he felt as if he had been stopped before an
outmoded and conventional picture in a private gallery by a host who
valued it too highly.
A year or so later, Alice Darrell mentioned to him an odd story she had
heard. It appeared that Parthenope had been carrying a great deal more
jewelry than would seem necessary for a woman travelling quietly with
two invalid sisters. To be sure, she had not taken all tire jewelry she
possessed, but she had taken enough for the value to be estimated at
fifty thousand pounds; and of this not a penny could be recovered, for
it was uninsured. Her husband had left the matter for her to handle,
because she had sold some old jewelry and had bought some to replace it
just about the time that the policy should have been renewed, but she
had failed to write the necessary letter to her lawyers till the very
night before the journey to Hyères, and it was found, unposted, at the
hotel in Grasse.
“Parthenope!” my uncle said. “Let an insurance policy lapse! Parthenope! I’ll not believe it.”
“That’s just what I said,” Alice Darrell exclaimed. ‘Any of the others,
but not Parthenope. She had her hand on everything. Yet, of course, she
may have changed. They are a queer family. There was the other one, you
know – the one who disappeared. That was after the accident.
It seemed that another sister – Hera, Aunt Alice thought it was – had
also suffered ill health, and had gone to France with a nurse, and one
day her cloak and bonnet were found on the bank of a river. “I wish that
things turned out better,” Aunt Alice remarked sadly. “They do
sometimes, but not often enough.” This was the only criticism of life he
had ever heard her utter, though she had had a sad life, constantly
losing the people she loved, to tropical diseases or to wars against
obscure tribes that lacked even the interest of enmity. What she uttered
now made him realize that she had indeed thought Parthenope remarkable,
and he said, smiling, ” Why, we are making ourselves quite miserable
about her, though all we know for sure is that she let an insurance
policy lapse.”
He
did not hear of the Admiral’s daughters again until after a long space
of time, during which he had many other things to think about: his
career, which was alternatively advanced by his brilliance and retarded
by his abstracted candour; a long affair with a married woman older than
himself, some others that were briefer; and his marriage, which, like
his career, and for much the same reason, was neither a success nor a
failure. One day when he was reading the papers at his club, he heard
two men speaking of a friend who was distressed about his mother, whose
behaviour had been strange since she had been left a widow. She had
rejected the dower house and gone off to the Continent to travel by
herself and now refused to come back to see her family or to meet them
abroad. The mother had an old Greek name, and so had a sister, who had
got herself murdered for her jewels in the South of France. My uncle
went on staring at his newspaper, but it was as if a door in his mind
were swinging backward and forward on a broken hinge.
Many years later, when Aunt Alice was dead and my uncle was a
middle-aged man, with children who were no longer children, he broke his
journey home from a conference in Spain at a certain town in the
southwest of France, for no other reason than that its name had always
charmed him. But it proved to be a dull place, and as he sat down to
breakfast at a cafe in the large and featureless station square, it
occurred to him to ask the waiter if there were not some smaller and
pleasanter place in the neighbourhood where he could spend the rest of
the day and night. The waiter said that if Monsieur would take the
horse-bus that started from the other side of the square in half an
hour, it would take him to the village where he, the waiter, was born,
and there he would find a good inn and a church that people came all the
way from Paris
to see. My uncle took his advice; and because his night had been
wakeful, he fell asleep almost as soon as the bus started. He woke
suddenly to find that the journey had ended and he was in a village
which was all that he had hoped it would be. A broad, deliberate river,
winding among low wooded hills, spread its blessings at this point
through a circular patch of plain, a couple of miles or so across, which
was studded with farmhouses, each standing beside its deep green
orchard. In the centre of this circle was a village that was no more
than one long street, which looked very clean. The houses were built of
stone that had been washed by the hill rains, and beside the road a
brook flowed over a paved bed. There were bursts of red valerian growing
from the cracks in the walls and in the yard-long bridges that crossed
the brook. The street ended in a little square, where the church and the
inn looked across cobblestones, shaded by pollarded limes, at the mairie
and the post office. At the inn, my uncle took a room and slept for an
hour or two in a bed smelling of the herbs with which the sheets had
been washed. Then, as it was past
noon,
he went down to lunch, and ate some potato soup, a trout, some wood
strawberries, and a slice of cheese. Afterwards, he asked the landlord
how soon the church would be open, and was told that he could open it
himself when he chose. The priest and his housekeeper were away until
vespers, and had left the church keys at the inn. When he went to the
church, it was a long time before he unlocked the door, for there was a
beautiful tympanum in the porch, representing the Last Judgement. It was
clear-cut in more than one sense. There was no doubt who was saved and
who was damned: there was a beatific smile on the faces of those walking
in Paradise, which made it seem as if just there a shaft of sunlight
had struck the dark stone. Also the edges of the carving, though the
centuries had rubbed them down, showed a definition more positive than
mere sharpness. Often my uncle played games when he was alone, and now
he climbed on a wooden stool which was in the porch, and shut his eyes
and felt the faces of the blessed, and pretended that he had been blind
for a long time, and that the smiles of the blessed were striking into
his darkness through his fingertips. When he went into the church, he
found, behind an oaken door, the steps that led to the top of the tower.
He climbed up through darkness that was transfixed every few steps by
thin shafts of light, dancing with dust, coming through the eyelet
windows, and he found that though the tower was not very high, it gave a
fine view of an amphitheatre of hills, green on their lower slopes with
chestnut groves, banded higher with fir woods and bare turf, and
crowned with shining rock. He marked some likely paths on the nearest
hills, and then dropped his eyes to the village below, and looked down
into the oblong garden of a house that seemed larger than the rest. At
the farther end was the usual, pedantically neat French vegetable
garden; then there was a screen of espaliered fruit trees; then there
was a lawn framed in trees so tall and strong that it could have been
guessed from them alone that not far away there was a river. The lawn
was
set with croquet hoops, and about them were wandering four figures in
bright dresses—one hyacinth blue, one primrose yellow, one jade green,
one clear light red. They all had croquet mallets in their hands, but
they had turned from the game, and as my uncle watched them they drew
together, resting their mallets on the ground. some distance away, a
woman in black, taller thin the others, stood watching them.
When one of the croquet players let her mallet fall on the grass, and
used her free hands in a fluttering gesture, my uncle left the top of
the tower and went down through the darkness and shafts of light and
locked the church door behind him. In the corner of the square he found
what might have been the chateau of the village – one of those square
and solid dwellings, noble out of proportion to their size, which many
provincial French architects achieved in the seventeenth century. My
uncle went through an iron gateway into a paved garden and found that
the broad door of the house was open. He walked into the vestibule and
paused, looking up the curved staircase. The pictures were as old as the
house, and two had been framed to fit the recessed panels in which they
hung. The place must have been bought as it stood. On the threshold of
the corridor beyond, he paused again, for it smelled of damp stone, as
all the back parts of his father’s house in County Kerry did, at any
time of the year but high summer. It struck him as a piece of good
fortune for which he had never before been sufficiently grateful that he
could go back to that house any time he pleased; he would be there
again in a few weeks’ time. He passed the open door of a kitchen, where
two women
were
rattling dishes and pans and singing softly, and came to a closed door,
which he stared at for a second before he turned the handle.
He found himself in a salon that ran across the whole breadth of the
house, with three French windows opening on a stone terrace overlooking
the garden. As he crossed it to the steps that led down to the lawn, he
came close to a bird cage on a pole, and the scarlet parrot inside broke
into screams. All the women on the lawn turned and saw him, and the
tall woman in black called, “Que voulez-vous, Monsieur?” She
had put her hand to her heart and he was eager to reassure her, but
could not think how, across that distance, to explain why he had come.
So he continued to walk toward her, but could not reach her because the
four others suddenly scampered toward him, crying “Go away! Go away!”
Their arms flapped like bats’ wings, and their voices were cracked, but,
under their white hair, their faces were unlined and their eyes were
colourless as water, “Go away!” shrilled the one in light red. “We know
you have come to steal our strawberries. why may we not keep our own
strawberries?” But the figure in black had come forward with long
strides, and told them to go on with their game, and asked again, “Que voulez-vous, Monsieur?”
Her hair was grey now, and her mouth so sternly compressed that it was a
straight line across her face. She reminded my uncle of a particular
man – her father, the Admiral-but she was not like a man, she was still a
handsome and athletic boy, though a frost had fallen on him; and still
it was strange that she should look like a boy, since she was also not
male at all. My uncle found that now he was face to face with her, it
was just as difficult to explain to her why he had come. He said, “I
came to this village by chance this morning, and after I had luncheon at
the inn I went to the top of the church tower, and looked down on this
garden, and recognized you all. I came to tell you that if there is
anything I can do for you I will do it. I am a civil servant who has
quite a respectable career,
and so I can hope that I might be efficient enough to help you if you need it.”
“That is very kind,” she said, and paused, and it was as if she were
holding a shell to her ear and listening to the voice of a distant sea.
“Very kind,” she repeated. “But who are you?”
“I am the nephew of your neighbour, Mrs Darrell,” said my uncle. “I
brought you a letter from her, many years ago, when you were all in your
garden.”
Her smile broke slowly. “I remember you,” she said. “You were a fatherly
little boy. You gave me good advice from the top of a ladder. Why
should you have found me here, I wonder? It can’t be that, after all,
there is some meaning in the things that happen. You had better come
into the house and drink some of the cherry brandy we make here. I will
get the cook to come out and watch them. I never leave them alone now.”
While she went to the kitchen, my uncle sat in the salon and noted that,
for all its fine furniture and all its space and light, there was a
feeling that the place was dusty, the same feeling that he had noticed
in the Admiral’s house long ago. It is the dust of another world, he
thought with horror, and the housemaids of this world are helpless
against it. It settles wherever these women live, and Parthenope must
live with them.
When she came back, she was carrying a tray with a slender decanter and
very tiny glasses. They sat sipping the cherry brandy in silence until
she said, “I did nothing wrong.”
He looked at her in astonishment. Of course she had done nothing wrong. Wrong was what she did not do.
But she continued gravely. “When we all die, it will be found that the
sum I got for the jewelry is intact. My stepson will not be a penny the
worse off. Indeed, he is better off, for my husband has had my small
inheritance long before it would have come to him if I had not done
this.”
“I
knew you would have done it honestly,” said my uncle. He hesitated.
“This is very strange. You see, I knew things about you which I had no
reason to know. I knew you had not been murdered.” Then my uncle had to
think carefully. They were united by eternal bonds, but hardly knew each
other, which was the reverse of what usually happened to men and women.
But they might lapse into being strangers and nothing else if he showed
disrespect to the faith by which she lived. He said only, “Also I knew
that what you were doing in looking after your family was terrible.”
She answered, “Yes. How good it is to hear somebody say that it is
terrible, and to be able to answer that it is. But I had to do it. I had
to get my sisters away from their husbands. They were ashamed of them.
They locked them up in the care of strangers. I saw their bruises.” My
uncle caught his breath, “Oh,” she said, desperately just, “the people
who looked after them did not mean to be cruel. But they were strangers;
they did not know the way to handle my sisters. And their husbands were
not bad men, either. And even if they had been, I could not say a word
against them, for they were cheated; my father cheated them. They were
never told the truth about my mother. About my mother and half her
family.” She raised her little glass of cherry brandy to her lips and
nodded, to intimate that that was all she had to say, but words rushed
out and she brought her glass down to her lap. “I am not telling the
truth. Their husbands cheated, too. No, I am wrong. They did not cheat.
But they failed to keep their bond. Still, there is no use talking about
that.”
“What bond did your sisters’ husbands not keep?” my uncle asked.
“They married my sisters because they were beautiful, and laughed
easily, and could not understand figures. They might have considered
that
women who laugh easily might scream easily, and that if figures meant
nothing to them, words might mean nothing, either, and that if figures
and words meant nothing to them, thoughts and feelings might mean
nothing, too. But these men had the impudence to feel a horror of my
sisters.”
She rose, trembling, and told him that he must have a sweet biscuit with
his cherry brandy, and that she would get him some; they were in a
cupboard in the corner of the room. Over her shoulder, she cried, “I
cannot imagine you marrying a woman who was horrible because she was
horrible, and then turning against her because she was horrible.” She
went on seeing some wafers out on a plate, and he stared at the back of
her head, unable to imagine what was inside it, saying to himself, “She
realizes that they are horrible; there is no mitigation of her state.”
When she sat down again, she said, “But it was my father’s fault.”
“What was your father’s fault?” he asked gently, when she did not go on.
“Why, he should not have made us marry; he should not have sold our
house. My sisters were happy there, and all they asked was to be allowed
to go on living there, like children.”
“Your father wanted his daughters to marry so that they would have
someone to look after them when he was dead,” my uncle told her.
“I could have looked after them.”
“Come now,” said my uncle, “you are not being fair. You are the same
sort of person as your father. And you know quite well that if you were a
man you would regard all women as incapable. You see, men of the better
kind want to protect the women they love, and there is so much
stupidity
in the male nature and the circumstances of life are generally so
confused that they end up thinking they must look after women because
women cannot look after themselves. It is only very seldom that a man
meets a woman so strong and wise that he cannot doubt her strength and
wisdom, and realizes that his desire to protect her is really the same
as his desire to gather her into his arms and partake of her glory.”
Moving slowly and precisely, he took out his card-case and was about to
give her one of his cards when a thought struck him. She must have the
name of his family’s house in County Kerry as well as his London
address, and know that he went there at Christmas and at Easter, and in
the summer, too. She would be able to find him whenever she wanted him,
since such bootblack service was all he could render her.
She read the card and said in an astonished whisper, “Oh, how kind, how
kind.” Then she rose and put it in a drawer in a secretaire, which she
locked with a key she took from a bag swinging from the belt of her
hateful black gown. “I have to lock up everything,” she said, wearily.
“They mean no harm, but sometimes they get at papers and tear them up.”
“What I have written on that card is for an emergency,” said my uncle.
“But what is there I can do now? I do not like the thought of you
sitting here in exile, among things that mean nothing to you. Can I not
send you out something English – a piece of furniture, a picture, some
china or glass? If I were in your place, I would long for something that
reminded me of the houses where I had spent my childhood.”
“If you were in my place, you would not,” she said. “You are very kind,
but the thing that has happened to my family makes me not at all anxious
to remember my childhood. We were all such pretty children. Everybody
always spoke as if we were bound to be. And in those days nobody was
frightened of Mamma – they only laughed at her, because she was such a
goose. Then one thing followed another, and it became quite certain
about Mamma, and then it became quite certain about the others; and now I
cannot bear to think of the good times that went before. It is as if
someone had known and was mocking us. But you may believe that it is
wonderful for me to know that there is someone I can call on at any
time. You see, I had supports, which are being taken away from me. You
really have no idea how I got my sisters out here?”
My uncle shook his head. “I only read what was in the newspapers and knew it was not true.”
“But you must have guessed I had helpers,” she said. “There was the
highway robbery to be arranged. All that was done by somebody who was
English but had many connections in France, a man who was very fond of
Arethusa. Arethusa is the one who spoke to you in the garden; she
always wears red. This man was not like her husband; when she got worse
and worse, he felt no horror for her, only pity. He has always been
behind me, but he was far older than we were, and he died three years
ago; and since then his lawyer in Paris has been a good friend, but now
he is old, too, and I must expect him to go soon, I have made all
arrangements for what is to happen to my sisters after my death. They
will go to a convent near here, where the nuns are really kind, and we
are preparing them for it. One or other of the nuns comes here every day
to see my sisters, so that they will never have to be frightened by
strange faces; and I think that if my sisters go on getting worse at the
same rate as at present, they will by then believe the nuns when they
say that I have been obliged to go away and will come back presently.
But till that time comes, I will be very glad to have someone I can ask
for advice. I
can
see that you are to be trusted. You are like the man who loved
Arethusa. My poor Arethusa! Sometimes I think,” she said absently, “that
she might have been all right if it had been that man whom she had
married. But no,” she cried, shaking herself awake, “none of us should
have married, not even me.”
“Why should you not have married? asked my uncle. “That the others
should not I understand. But why not you? There is nothing wrong with
you.”
“Is there not?” she asked. “To leave my family and my home, to stage a
sham highway robbery, and later to plot and lie, and lie and plot, in
order to get my mad sisters to a garden I had once noted, in my travels,
as something like the garden taken from them when they were young.
There is an extravagance in the means my sanity took to rescue their
madness that makes the one uncommonly like the other.”
“You must not think that,” my uncle told her. “Your strange life forced
strangeness on your actions, but you are not strange. You were moved by
love, you had seen their bruises.”
“Yes, I had seen their bruises,” she agreed. “But,” she added,
hesitantly, “you are so kind that I must be honest with you. It was not
only for the love of my sisters that I arranged this flight. It is also
true that I could not bear my life. I was not wholly unselfish. You do
not know what it is like
to be a character in a tragedy. Something has happened which can only
be explained by supposing that God hates you with merciless hatred, and
nobody will admit it. The people nearest you stand round you saying that
you must ignore this extraordinary event, you must – what were the
words I was always hearing? – ‘keep your sense of proportion,’ ‘not
brood on things.’ They do not understand that they are asking you to
deny your experiences, which is to pretend that you do not exist and
never have existed. And as for the people who do not love you, they
laugh. Our tragedy was so ridiculous that the laughter was quite loud.
There were all sorts of really funny stories about the things my mother
and sisters did before they were shut up. That is another terrible thing
about being a character in a tragedy; at the same time you become a
character in a farce. Do not deceive yourself,” she said, looking at him
kindly and sadly. “I am not a classical heroine, I am not Iphigenia or
Electra or Alcestis, I am the absurd Parthenope. There is no dignity in
my life. For one thing, too much has happened to me. One calamity evokes
sympathy; when two calamities call for it, some still comes, but less.
Three calamities are felt to be too many, and when four are reported, or
five, the thing is ludicrous. God has only to strike one again and
again for one to become a clown. There is nothing about me which is not
comical. Even my flight with my sisters has become a joke.” She sipped
at her glass. “My sisters’ husbands and their families must by now have
found out where we are. I do not think my husband ever did, or he would
have come to see me. But there are many little indications that the
others know, and keep their knowledge secret, rather than let loose so
monstrous a scandal.”
“You say your husband would have come to see you?” asked my uncle, wanting to make sure. “But that must mean he loved you.”
At
last the tears stood in her eyes. She said, her voice breaking, “Oh,
things might have gone very well with my husband and myself, if love had
been possible for me. But of course it never was.”
“How wrong you are,” said my uncle. “There could be nothing better for
any man than to have you as his wife. If you did not know that, your
husband should have made you understand it.”
“No, no,” she said. “The fault was not in my husband or myself. It was
in love, which cannot do all that is claimed for it. Oh, I can see that
it can work miracles, some miracles, but not all the miracles that are
required before life can be tolerable, Listen: I love my sisters, but I
dare not love them thoroughly. To love them as much as one can love
would be to go to the edge of an abyss and lean over the edge, farther
and farther, till one was bound to lose one’s balance and fall into the
blackness of that other world where they live. That is why I never dared
let my husband love me fully. I was so much afraid that I might be an
abyss, and if he understood me, if we lived in each other, he would be
drawn down into my darkness.”
“But there is no darkness in you,” said my uncle, “you are not an abyss, you are the solid rock.”
“Why do you think so well of me?” she wondered. “Of course, you are
right to some extent – I am not the deep abyss I might be. But how could
I be sure of that when I was young? Every night when I lay down in bed I
examined my day for signs of folly. If I had lost my temper, if I had
felt more joy than was reasonable, I was like one of a tuberculous
family who has just heard herself cough. Only the years that had not
then passed made me sure that I was unlike my sisters, and until I knew,
I had to hold myself back. I could not let the fine man who was my
husband be
tempted into my father’s fault.”
“What was your father’s fault?” asked my uncle, for the second time since he had entered that room.
Again her disapproval was absolute, her eyes were like steel. But this
time she answered at once, without a moment’s hesitation: Why, he should
not have loved my mother.”
“But you are talking like a child!” he exclaimed. “You cannot blame anyone for loving anyone.”
“Did you ever see him?” she asked, her eyes blank because they were
filled with a distant sight. “Yes? You must have been only a boy, but
surely, you say that he was remarkable. And he had a mind, he was a
mathematician, he wrote a book on navigation that was thought brilliant;
they asked him to lecture to the Royal Society. And one would have
thought from his face that he was a giant of goodness and strength. How
could such a man love such a woman as my mother? It was quite mad, the
way he made us marry. How could he lean over the abyss of her mind and
let himself be drawn down into that darkness?”
“Do not let your voice sink to a whisper like that,” my uncle begged her. “It – it –”
“It frightens you,” she supplied.
“But have you,” he pressed her, “no feeling for your mother?”
“Oh yes,” she said, her voice breaking. “I loved my mother very much.
But when she went down into the darkness, I had to say good-bye to her
or I could not have looked after my sisters.” It seemed as if she was
going to weep, but she clung to her harshness and asked again, “How
could my father love such a woman?”
My uncle got up and knelt in front of her chair and took her trembling
hands in his. “There is no answer, so do not ask the question.”
“I
must ask it,” she said. “surely it is blasphemy to admit that one can
ask questions to which there are no answers. I must ask why my father
leaned over the abyss of my mother’s mind and threw himself into it, and
dragged down victim after victim with him – not only dragging them down
but manufacturing them for that sole purpose, calling them out of
nothingness simply so that they could fall and fall. How could he do it?
If there is not an answer – ”
He put his hand over her lips. “He cannot have known that she was mad when he begot his children.”
Her passion had spent itself in her question. She faintly smiled as she
said, “No, but I never liked the excuse that he and my sisters’ husbands
made for themselves. They all said that at first they had simply
thought their wives were rather silly. I could not have loved someone
whom I thought rather silly. Could you?”
“It is not what I have done,” said my uncle. “May I have some more cherry brandy?”
“I am so glad you like it,” she said, suddenly happy. “But you have given me the wrong glass to fill. This is mine.”
“I knew that,” he told her. “I wanted to drink from your glass.”
“I would like to drink from yours,” she said, and for a little time they
were silent. “Tell me,” she asked meekly, as if now she had put herself
in his hands, “do you think it has been wrong for me to talk about what
has happened to me? When I was at home they, always said it was bad to
brood over it.”
“What nonsense,” said my uncle. “I am sure that it was one of the major
misfortunes of Phèdre and Bérénice that they were unable to read
Racine’s clear-headed discussions of their miseries.”
“You are right,” said Parthenope. “Oh, how kind Racine was to tragic
people! He would not allow for a moment that they were comic. People at
those courts must have giggled behind their hands at poor Bérénice, at
poor Phèdre. But he ignored them. You are kind like Racine.”
There was a tapping on the glass of the French window,, and her face
went grey. “What has happened now? Oh, what has happened now?” she
murmured to herself. It was the cook who had tapped, and she was looking
grave. Parthenope went out and spoke with her for a minute, and then
came back, and again the tears were standing in her eyes. “I thought I
might ask you to stay all day with me,” she said. “I thought we might
dine together. But my sisters cannot bear it that there is a stranger
here. They’re are hiding in the raspberry canes, and you must have heard
them screaming. Part of that noise comes from the parrot, but part from
them. It sometimes takes hours to get them quiet. I cannot help it; you
must go.”
He took both her hands and pressed them against his throat, and felt it
swell as she muttered, “Good-bye.” But as he was going through the paved
garden to the gateway he heard her call “Stop! Stop!” and she was just
behind him, her skirts lifted over her ankles so that she could take her
long strides. “The strangest thing,” she said, laughing. “I have not
told you the name by which I am known here.” She spelled it out to him
as he wrote it down in his diary, and turned back toward the house,
exclaiming, “What a thing to forget” But then she swung back again,
suddenly pale, and said, “But do not write to me. I am only giving you
the name so that if I send you a message you will be able to answer it.
But do not write to me.”
“Why not?” he asked indignantly. “Why not?”
“You must not be involved in my life,” she said. “There is a force
outside the world that hates me and all my family. If you wrote to me
too often it might hate you, too.”
“I
would risk that,” he said, but she cried, covering her eyes, “No, no,
by being courageous you are threatening my last crumb of happiness. If
you stay a stranger, I may be allowed to keep what I have of you. So do
as I say.”
He made a resigned gesture, and they parted once more. But as she got to
her door, he called to her to stop and hurried back. “I will not send
you anything that will remind you of your home,” he said, “but may I not
send you a present from time to time – some stupid little thing that
will not mean much but might amuse you for a minute or two?”
She hesitated but in the end nodded. “A little present, a very little
present,” she conceded. “And not too often.” She smiled like the saved
in the sculpture in the church, and slowly closed the door on him.
But when he was out in the square and walking toward the inn, he heard
her voice crying again, “Stop! Stop!” This time she came quite close to
him and said, as if she were a child ashamed to admit to a fault, “There
is another thing that I would like to ask of you. You said that I might
write to you if I wanted anything, and I know that you meant business
things – the sort of advice men give women. But I wonder if your
kindness goes beyond that; You are so very kind. I know all about most
dreadful things in life, but I know nothing about death. Usually I think
I will not mind leaving this world, but just now and then, if I wake up
in the night, particularly in winter, when it is very cold, I am afraid
that I may be frightened when I die.”
“I fear that, too, sometimes,” he said.
“It seems a pity, too, to leave this world, in spite of the dreadful
things that happen in it,” she went on. “There are things that nothing
can spoil –
the spring and the summer and the autumn.”
“And, indeed, the winter, too,” he said.
“Yes, the winter, too,” she said and looked up at the amphitheatre of
hills round the village. “You cannot think how beautiful it is here when
the snow has fallen. But, of course, death may be just what one has
been waiting for; it may explain everything. But still, I may be
frightened when it comes. So if I do not die suddenly, if I have warning
of my death, would it be a great trouble for you to come and be with me
for a little?”
“As I would like to be with you always, I would certainly want to be
with you then,” he said. “And if I have notice of my death and you are
free to travel, I will ask you to come to me.”
My uncle found that he did not want to go back to the inn just then, and
he followed a road leading up to the foothills. There he climbed one of
the paths he had remarked from the top of the church tower, and when he
got to the bare rock, he sat down and looked at the village beneath him
till the twilight fell. On his return to London, he painted a
water-colour of the view of the valley as he recollected it, and pasted
it in a book, which he kept by his bedside. From time to time, some
object in the window of an antique shop or a jeweller’s would bring
Parthenope to his mind, and he would send it to her, The one that
pleased him as most fitting was a gold ring; in the form of two leaves,
which was perhaps Saxon. She acknowledged these presents in brief
letters; and it delighted him that often her solemn purpose of brevity
broke down and she added an unnecessary sentence or two, telling him of
something that had brightened her day – of a strayed fawn she had found
in her garden, or a prodigious crop of cherries,
which
had made her trees quite red. But after some years these letters
stopped. When he took into account how old she was, and by how many
years she had been the elder, he realized that probably she had died. He
told himself that at least she had enjoyed the mercy of sudden death,
and presently ceased to think of her. It was as if the memory of her
were too large to fit inside his head; he felt actual physical pain when
he tried to recollect her. This was the time when such things as the
finest buttercup field near London and the tomb of Captain Vancouver
seemed to be all that mattered to him. But from the day when he heard
the girl at the inn called by the name of his Parthenope, he again found
it easy to think of her; and he told me about her very often during the
five years that passed before his death.
Blogs by their very nature tend to be personal, so it may not be
amiss for me to admit that a few months ago I suffered a reverse which
then
slipped into an ever-worsening slump, and that since then my thinking
has still not recovered its accustomed level of serviceability. But this
story by the redoubtable Rebecca West has gone a long way towards
ameliorating that condition, though not my present inclination to cavil
and inveigh.
It is the kind of old-fashioned, rambling short-story one is pleased and surprised to find being published in the New Yorker on the cusp of the ‘sixties. The story has nothing in it – not even a trace – of anything sordid, base or dull, and none of West’s caustic wit at the forefront, for there is no need here for her to be blatant about it. Her narrative is deceptively relaxed, but finely wrought – an antique gold watch chain attached to a fine old watch that keeps perfect time.
It comes as no surprise then, that reading it was to me as a gentle
restorative, and in its way a redemption. I have to curb myself in order
to restrain, as one would call it, an excess of enthusiasm, as one
feels when encountering after a long while an old love, or the object of
a deep affection. But why should I be so powerfully affected? The
simple and truthful answer is that something in me was made to resonate.
As with all periodicals, even the highly traditional New Yorker
has had to change somewhat with the times, and the changes are never
more apparent to me than in the current quality and tone of its fiction.
I do not know whether there have been still further changes, and
perhaps for the better, in recent times, but since I have simply
stopped reading the short stores, I have no way of knowing for certain
if the cooked cardboard characters going about their uninteresting
business have ceased to inhabit the fiction features. Perhaps it is not
the New Yorker which is to blame, but the dearth of available
material. Perhaps before too long I might persuade myself to summon the
gumption to try reading another such offering, because I would like very
much to be surprised.
Part
of the problem is perhaps that in this century, short-stories have
become recognisably formulaic, consistently striking the same dull note.
The challenge in many instances seems to be how much can be written
about little or nothing that is of any significance, and how much talent
and determination can be brought to documenting a catalogue of
banalities. Not that it can’t be superbly done, and Elizabeth Bowen’s
October 11, 1941 piece “Everything’s Frightfully Interesting” written
almost entirely in dialogue, takes triviality and vapid conversation to
the level of sublimity. But Bowen isn’t around anymore is she – nor is
Katherine Mansfield or Sylvia Townsend Warner, or for a matter of fact
Rebecca West. Its needs must when the devil rides for the New Yorker I suppose, when there are no longer any such writers to contribute.
All writing is contrived: that is axiomatic, and the most of it more
flagrantly than the small remainder. But some contrivances are so
obviously, so egregiously and blatantly, fake as to resemble painted
corpses, and the surrounding flowers and white satin only serve to
accentuate that there is no life to be found here. I often wonder if
this kind of writing is the precursor of further corruption. Certainly
it is not something which belongs above-ground, as one instinctively
feels in it the incipience of decay. The New Yorker published
“Parthenope” on November 7 1959, but this story seems much older in
tone, and one suspects that West might have written it several decades
earlier. Then too, her characters were born in the Victorian era, and
this is something we must bear in mind when we read her story. So I
could, I suppose, conclude that some of my obvious delight derives from
my bitter
and forlorn inner literary atavist raising its shaggy head.
In “Parthenope” we have all the potent ingredients of a Victorian
story finely adapted to a later time: first love, an implacably
authoritarian father, madness, victimised women, self-sacrifice, an
honourable protagonist, glimpses into the workings of families, foreign
travel, inter-generational relationships, and a high moral tone
modulated to a contemporary range of hearing. Still, I find West’s
adumbration of the original Parthenope story curious. Our Parthenope,
despite her act of heroic self-sacrifice, was a married woman and not a
virgin (the Greek name ‘Parthenope’ means maiden-face), and did
not commit suicide for love of an adventurer. And Uncle Arthur, despite
his infidelities and foreign travel, was no Odysseus. True, he seems to
have been beckoned by the siren’s song, but he never stopped his ears
to keep from hearing it, and I think he was ready to love as fully and
authentically as he could, had he been so permitted. The Sirens’ call is
a metaphor for the implacable undertow that beauty and music have on
our lives. These two forces often divert us from our charted course,
and
we founder on them and lose our wonted bearings, but the paradox is
that rather than killing us, they remove us from the deadness of what
life would be without them. Perhaps it is a small but definite riff of
redemption that West intended us to hear, for there is no connection in
the story to Naples, where after her suicide Parthenope’s body was
washed ashore between Chiatamone and Posilippo at a place originally
called Parthenope by the Greeks and Neapolis by the Romans. West might
have chosen to name her character after Parthenope in order to echo the
themes of the divine punishment visited upon the Sirens, their uncanny
natures, as well as that of unfulfilled love, all themes which possess
the elements of tragedy, but don’t quite rise to its accepted
requirements.
West’s Parthenope is an intriguing character. Her androgynous
appearance, stressed and carefully described by West, suggests for me a
subtly lesbian flavour, much like Marion (another resourceful and loyal
sister) in Wilkie Collins’ The Woman in White. When she creates
an almost saintly heroine who martyrs herself in order to take care of
her weak-minded sisters (one of whom nevertheless knew about Titian, and
loved light, red dresses and red hair), West departs from her
unshakable conviction that self-sacrifice in women is to be deplored, or
perhaps this story predated that conviction. But is it really sacrifice
when it is the only choice one can make, and other choices lead only to
self-betrayal?
Is West implying there is no such thing as being altruistic? Or in
Parthenope is she painting for us a different kind of ‘sacrifice’ which
has nothing to do with weak submission, but a strong and decisive
resolve to assume responsibility for the happiness and welfare of her
sisters? Certainly Parthenope showed evidence of an exceptional courage
when she set aside the fear that she herself might go mad in the future,
and put into action a daring plan to rescue her sisters from the
horror of the lives to which their mental disease and and unsympathetic
husbands had destined them. Though Fate ran through it like an indelible
blight, there seems to have been so much grace to be found in her
uneasy life, and there is no doubt at all that in the last or any other
judgement, Parthenope would be on the side of those redeemed. She
herself is one of the things that ‘nothing can spoil’.
The ambivalent feelings reserved by his family for Uncle Arthur
(‘derision and respect’) give us an important key to his character. He
is brilliant but clueless, at least in regard to his relationships with
his superiors in the Civil Service. He also seems to be ineffectual,
unambitious, and with the exception of the niece in the story, his
family ties seem rather loose. But that may be only as it appears. Uncle
Arthur’s
career
setbacks have hidden implications. Anyone who has been employed for any
significant length of time in a State bureaucracy will soon learn that
these are highly corrupt places, where those in power have gained their
position through political manouevering. Superiors, even if they are not
intrinsically evil, are people who manage to set themselves up in
positions of authority over others, and soon themselves become the tools
of moral corruption. That Uncle Arthur seems to have been oblivious to
this could mean one of two things: either he might not have cared enough
about the consequences of offending the vanity of his chiefs, or
something in his character carried him beyond the reach of the internal
culture of his profession. He seems quite simply to have been a gentle
scholar who nevertheless did not desist from using his scholarship to
point out the vanity and ignorance of his eminently placed superiors. To
describe him as unambitious is one of the greatest compliments it is
possible for me to pay a civil servant, since in my personal experience
at least, what is required in order to fulfill any professional
ambitions in such an organisation or one like it, is close and vigilant
engagement with a pack of highly detestable characters, and a
willingness to engage with them on questionable terms. He had, I think, a
great
sense of justice and fairness, and an instinctive honesty. It seems
not to have been learned, or forced, or acquired as a desirable trait,
and not adopted to please God, but an instinct for virtue. He did not
turn bitter for not having reaped the rewards he might have expected
either in his career or his marriage, or for that matter, for not having
managed a single successful relationship with a member of the opposite
sex.
It is possible that marriage failed to give satisfaction because there was nothing there that needed saving, the impulse to save being deeply ingrained in his character. When he shuts his eyes and explores the faces of the blessed on the tympanum of the chapel, one feels it is an act which afforded him great satisfaction and pleasure. He would have wished to save Parthenope had he been given the opportunity. She had inspired in him an instant spark of fellow-feeling, and the first flaring of indignation he felt on her behalf had never been entirely extinguished. That was his immediate impulse when he saw her again, and when he found this was not possible, he resolved to offer her whatever ancillary support it was in his power to provide. He never seems to have been able to forget Parthenope, and one wonders if he sought her echo in the older married woman with whom he had an affaire. His infidelities notwithstanding, we find in him the unmistakable evidence of a lofty nature: a deferential love, deference being the complex and evolved behaviour it always is when at its finest and not merely a trait which cannot be distinguished from weakness or inferiority.
Though
his love was to find no conventional fulfillment, he found no cause to
repine. Even at a difficult moment he was determined to find joy by
resolving to be alive to life and natural beauty. He may have been
deprived of youthful happiness, the lush beauty of Summer and Autumn,
but he would claim from what remained whatever there was of love and
happiness to be desired by his heart. This to me seems much more
suggestive of strength than weakness. Arthur was precocious when young
and child-like when old. Does this mean he was at his core a balanced
well-integrated being? Or does it suggest he was always out of synch
with his chronological stage in life? At an obvious level, I think it
reveals that he possessed an ability to respond to circumstances with an
unexpected amplitude of feeling .
This and other aspects of West’s story lead me to the conclusion that she wrote it when still quite young. For instance, every exchange between Uncle Arthur and Parthenope when he was a young boy and an old man, is marked by a tacit discernment and intuitive grasp of what each reveals to the other. This is very much the kind of understanding young people would like their elders to have, and would wish to be seen to have themselves. To be perceived and to be taken seriously by an adult is a gift which a young child in Victorian times could not often expect to receive, and it is no wonder then that Uncle Arthur found Parthenope unforgettable.
I suspect that Uncle Arthur was never really understood by anyone
else. I suspect he might have seemed remote and removed with his family,
to
whom he was neither fish nor fowl, and his peers and colleagues were
probably at a loss of what to make of him. He seems to have been adept
at keeping his own counsel, and accustomed to keeping his ears open and
his mouth shut, which is an equally useful skill in a State bureaucracy,
or a club or breakfast table when one has just read a shocking bit of
news about which it is important to not immediately comment. Nor does he
seem to have flaunted his brilliance or erudition or worked to his
advantage his astute understanding of the relationships between men and
women, which is why, I suppose, he seems, despite such obvious
disappointments, to have no axe to grind in that regard. Though by the
time he meets Parthenope again, and being very much comme il faut,
he knows exactly when to presume, and when not. He lets himself onto
the premises unannounced, and allows himself the intimacy of drinking
from Parthenope’s glass. He appears not to have outgrown his childish
claim of “we are not proper English you know…” but retains intact the
same delicacy about her feelings he possessed as a child. I think more
than the recognition and appreciation of one lonely soul of another it
is the knowledge that each was the only soul to whom the other could
make itself known that forms the basis of their ‘unbreakable bond’. They
have much in common, and though he is wrong
about
a few things about her (such as when he mistakenly assumes that she
suffers from a sense of exile and misses her old home in England and
wishes to to be reminded of it), he recognises her strength and beauty,
and in fact sees her much better than she appears to see herself. One
hopes that before he left, and later by his continued expression of
loyalty and love, he was able to convince her to recognise her strength
and worth. I hope as well he might have persuaded her to find a more
personal happiness for herself than she had permitted herself to have
until then, though West rings down the curtain on Parthenope without
permitting us the gratification of knowing that to any degree of
certainty.
I suppose this might be a good place at which to stop my commentary,
but many speculations still linger on in my mind. West’s classical
allusion is a reflection of the punishment the Sirens incurred for
challenging the Muses in a contest of singing, after which they were
changed into creatures with the heads of birds and the bodies of women,
which seems to imply, given a dual nature. In the case of Parthenope
(the siren), the punishment was worse: her failed attempt to seduce
Odysseus drove her to suicide. In giving Parthenope the face of a woman
and the body of a boy, West suggest a similar duality. Along with that,
West endows her with traits thought conventionally to be masculine,
those of protectiveness, courage, and resourcefulness. Uncle Arthur
however bears only the vaguest resemblance to Odysseus, and that only
in the feeling we get that he is a wanderer always far from home. But
there is a hidden implication here as well. The union of Odysseus and
Penelope is described by Homer as comprising a perfect balance of male
and female. So this is what appears to me to be at the root of Uncle
Arthur’s ‘homesickness’, a fact that as a classical scholar, might not
have escaped him entirely. He seems to have lacked the ability to
respond competently and effectively to a situation that needed changing
or improving, and simply tolerated the circumstances in which he found
himself
with what might be seen as as bland passivity, as Parthenope did not.
Parthenope’s ‘presumption’ may have been that she took it upon herself to play a masculine role, that of a guardian and protector of women. Complexities of character sometimes tend to be sorted out in pairs of opposites such as ‘feminine’ and ‘masculine’. The reason she was not fatally punished for this is that she, like Odysseus, ‘lashed herself to the mast’ – hers the mast of the eternal vigilance she exercised over her thoughts and actions, always subjecting herself to the closest scrutiny for any sign of incipient madness. Thinking herself always to be on the very brink of that abyss, she would never permit herself to be lost in it, and so discharged her duties sedulously and assiduously like the ‘wise virgin’ she was. Vigilance was the price for avoiding perdition.
Parthenope’s
understanding of tragedy was entirely Greek, whereas Uncle Arthur’s,
with its understanding of redress and even salvation, tends towards the
Christian, and in this he does indeed resemble Racine to whom West
would, as Parthenope does, compare him. But another Racinian insight (a
term I just made up) is that tragedy derives from the realisation that
one can do nothing to alter the more intractable forms of tragic
inheritance, as well as the irresistible compulsion to reflect upon it
which usually accompanies an introspective nature. I think ‘Parthenope’
also invites us to ask the question of what rises to the level of
tragedy and what does not, or not quite does, and the parts played by
fate and choice in our lives. Parthenope chose to forego the happiness
of a continued liaison with Uncle Arthur for fear of the tragic
consequences she believed might ensue if she did not withhold herself,
and he complies with her mandate with only a few small but significant
exemptions. So both of them resolve their dilemmas by deciding to forgo
happiness in order that in doing so tragedy might be averted.
But my own stubborn mind reverts to a third option, that of propitiation. The gods are not always implacable, and their vanity predisposes them to be susceptible to appeasement. I don’t know why at this point I was reminded of the Palinode written by Stesichoros, by which means he induced Helen (who was worshipped by the Spartans as a goddess) to retract the penalty of blindness she had imposed on him for the impudent statements he had made about her. In his palinode Stesichoros revised history:
There is no truth in that story,
You didn’t ride in the well-rowed galleys,
You didn’t reach the walls of Troy.
Though there is no mitigation for ultimate tragedy, there is some for
loss, and one of them is the retention of dignity. Uncle Arthur
insisted on
reframing Parthenope’s despairing characterisation of her tragedy as
verging on farce to a great misfortune faced with gallantry and
strength, and in doing so he restored to her a sense of her own dignity.
Sometimes this perspective can only be gained by securing a view from a
point above the plane of action. Uncle Arthur’s ascent to the top of
the church tower permitted him to catch sight of Parthenope’s sisters
playing croquet, and thus to find her again. In aiding a revisitation of
her past, he helped her reexamine her father’s behaviour and her own
conclusions about him in a different light, and in so doing perhaps he
rewrote Parthenope’s history himself.
Another possibility is that Parthenope might well have served out her
term of punishment. I wonder if this idea occurred to Uncle Arthur,
though it was one he was constrained by Parthenope from pursuing. The
foregoing of the pleasure of a day spent in each other’s company was
one of the final offerings laid by Parthenope on the altar of the
punitive gods, but they must have known that in the preceding years
Uncle Arthur too had paid a collateral price, because both he and
Parthenope had, each in his and her different way, become exiles.
Although both of their exiles possessed ambiguous
elements
(hers because she herself wished to escape her old life, and his
because he was deterred from finding as fitting a place in life with her
as might have been wished), the price paid by him might have been
considered to augment hers. Euripides remarked that “All women are
exiles”, but we sense in Uncle Arthur too a certain rootlessness, and
what appear to be his frequent travels away from home may have been
contrived in part to sharpen the pleasure of his return. He shows no
indication of wanting to return to his his wife and family, though is it
left unclear if he had either to return to. ‘Home’ to him meant a place
and not people, but it may have been that this was an accommodation he
was inclined to make, in the absence of the only person who mattered to
him and with whom he might have been ‘at home’.
It did not matter to Uncle Arthur that in sharing Parthenope’s life
he risked incurring God’s displeasure, but it mattered very much to her.
Was her dread merely a superstition, or was she right? That one is
hated by God for this, that and the other reason, is an assertion many
Christians use in order to bully the people they themselves hate, but
what if they are on to something? We have only to cast a single look
about us in order to see everywhere the evidence of a malevolent God,
and if further proof were required, we are assured that it is in His
image that man was created. But one thing is certain: there are certain
kinds of human love which seem as if they could put God to shame,
and this was demonstrated by Parthenope, who believed that God hated
her. She sent Uncle Arthur away for his own safety. In caring for her
sisters she demonstrated that the sternest, most consistently enduring
morality is inspired and dictated by love, for all other kinds are bound
sooner or later to fail; and in refusing to let Uncle Arthur run the
risk of being cursed as she was, she revealed the hidden grace of
blasphemy.
Rebecca West, Dame Commander of the British Empire and member of the
French Légion d”Honneur was born Cicely Isabel Fairfield, on the winter
solstice December 21 1892, and died on March 15 1983 the Ides of March.
Victoria Glendinning’s biography on Rebecca West: A Life
A fine chapter in Rosemary Dinnage’s book of some remarkable women Alone, Alone
Link to the post on Rebecca West Wikipedia
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rebecca_West
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